Day 2 of my journey to manifesting more money focuses on shifting old patterns of thinking to inspired action through inspiration and intention. In order to dismantle and release negative beliefs and abundance blocks, we have to take the time to identify what they are and how or when they originated.
Today's post includes the stories I told myself about money, as revealed through prayer and meditation; and my dream life manifesto of inspiration and intention.
The origins of my money story
My first memories about money and the negative things I believed in those defining moments were…
AGE 11: I was scheduled to have eye surgery on my “lazy” left eye only (my right eye was 20/20). When I was wheeled into surgery and before my mother arrived at the hospital, the intern who performed the surgery stated that he was going to operate on both eyes to make it easier for my recovery. When my mother arrived, she was shocked and livid to see my right eye also operated on without her presence or permission. However, we never received justice or compensation because we didn’t have money for a lawyer and had to deal with Legal Aid. The hospital and doctors stood behind their intern’s decision, stating that he did a wonderful job, and the Legal Aid Lawyer wouldn’t pursue the case.
My 11 year old self felt vulnerable and unprotected. Through that defining moment, I decided that:
AGE 17: During the end of my first semester in college, I had the opportunity to stay in the dorms over the summer and regroup from the traumas of that year. However, my mother refused to pay the dorm fee and insisted that I come home because I had really botched up my first semester. It had been a challenging year for me being ill-equipped to manage my emotions around my first experience in the loss of a loved one (my grandfather, whose home I was raised in); my boyfriend's arrest for assault in a provoked fight; and the rape, my first sexual penetration. At one point, I thought I would lose my mind, but I survived it all and was determined to press forward and do better. Mom’s refusal deflated my hope like a torpedo bursting a Good Year Blimp-size balloon. Thank God for Grandma, who provided the summer dorm fee because she knew that home would not be the best environment for me at the time.
My 17 year old self felt disappointed in my mom’s response and decided in that defining moment that:
AGE 17: During the 2nd semester of that first year, my roommate was spring cleaning and tricked my boyfriend to unknowingly throw out several pairs of my shoes, which were stored in a black plastic bag. She also allowed the perpetrator, who raped me, into our room and my bed while I was in a drunken sleep (first semester, see video to hear my “One Billion Rising: I Rise 4 U” story or read the article). I observed that she was a single mother of 3-boys, older than me, not considered attractive or popular, and had non-existing support and limited funds. Whereas, my mom and grandparents made sure I had all I needed in material possessions.
My 17 year old self decided in that defining moment of the shoes (because it took me 20 years to deal with the rape) that:
So as you can see by my defining moments, I had conflicting emotions and beliefs around money buried in my subconscious that needed to be addressed. Thank God for the coaching programs and spiritual practices that have helped me to shift my money mindset over the years. It is a process that I am still growing through, but have adopted some new thoughts and affirmations:
My only work is to remove anything that blocks, limits, or inhibits the natural flow of abundance that I am.
My only work is to A.L.L.O.W abundance to manifest in my bank accounts and pockets. How do I A.L.L.O.W? I Ask God questions. I Listen to Spirit respond. I Listen to my life experiences. I Order my steps by writing it out. I Work at what is required to grow, heal and transform my life and then I take inspired action.
My dream life manifesto
I wake up in the morning with a smile in my soul and a song in my heart, next to my God assigned soul-mate, who loves me beyond measure and demonstrates it daily. I am in full gratitude and give thanks to God for another day of new mercies, love and opportunity. My ‘hubbie’ and I enjoy some snuggle time and a word of prayer before getting up to start our day. We prepare and eat a lovely breakfast, clean the dishes and go about our business.
I exercise, shower, dress and have my quiet time of prayer and meditation, bible-reading and worship. Then I go into my home office to plan, address the ‘to do’ list for the day and complete some projects. My books are bestsellers and all my products, collaborations and ventures are making money in my sleep. My business is profitable and self-sustaining.
I have a loyal and dependable expert driver to take me to engagements, book fairs, or anywhere I need to be. I also have extended business facility built on my property where I conduct trainings/ workshops and meet with clients.
In addition, we have a water front property where we vacation and I go to write and be at one with the water and God. I am relaxed and blissful. I travel at will and have an unlimited supply of resources and wealth. My family is love in action and we often gather together in united harmony, and have legacy properties that house family members. We are all healed and whole on every level of our being.
All is well in my world and beyond.
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Jo Anne Meekins is the founder of Inspired 4 U Ministries and Inspired 4 U Publications; and an author, publisher, coach and speaker.